Let me start off by saying that I love my kiddos more than life itself. But....school needs to start VERY soon or my head is going to explode.

Hormones are flying, the nit-picking battles are non-stop, and the constant flow of friends through the house are really starting to irritate me. Love that their friends LIKE to hang out at our house, but enough is enough.

I'm looking forward to the days when it will just be me and the dog.

"Just remember, you can do anything you set your mind to, but it takes action, perseverance, and facing your fears."-- Gillian Anderson

Wow, I am just the opposite.

Tho' too much togetherness can get grating, I will take getting on each others nerves together over missing out on 7 hours of my kids lives everyday PLUS homework.

I hate the school year. We have always been an up early family but the rush of getting dressed, breakfast, lunches packed and to school takes the joy out of "good morning".
I miss the kids during the day. It isn't so bad in grade school because I end up in the school a least a few times a week and my kids are the type to still come up and kiss me if they see me on the playground. High school stinks! I can't even go in to put something in my son's locker.

Our summers are busy enough to allow time away (sleepovers, sports, playing and work) but I love that our time together is spent doing projects, homework and getting ready for the next day. I love late nights watching old movies, listening to them talk to friends while drinking lemonade on the front porch and sitting on the beach all day.

I am going to be a mess when they all are in college.
Can I homeschool college?





Judie and Victor
lucky parents to
Frankie 3/95
Maggie 7/96
Rose 7/96
Elizabeth 7/96

Oh, I'll definately miss them during the college years! LOL! I am hoping that they choose an in-state school. But I guess part of my problem is that we are stressed to the max. We are again facing a medical issue with my dd that is the result of her disability and the battle with the insurance company has been a real PITA. I'm also soo tired of traveling 2 hours to Children's Hospital at least once per month. My dfil's health is failing and everday we are helping him with daily issues (finances, medical things and keeping up his house so that he can continue to live in his home). AND, I start my 2nd semester of college in a few weeks. Ahhhhh!!! LOL!

Dh is working long hours (60 hours per week 5am-3pm M-Saturday) and training someone who is fresh out of college. Training a newbie takes a lot of time and patience, especially when dh has deadlines to meet himself. All of the above are definately contributing to my stress level. Basically, dh and I are being pulled in so many different directions right now.

As far as missing them when they are in school: I do miss them, BUT they really are in a terrific school system and thriving. I enjoy seeing them grow into independent individuals and rejoice in their success. Seeing their success and witnessing them aim for their dreams is one of my GREATEST joys!

I guess if I didn't have soooo many stressful issues on my plate right now, I may have a different outlook. Yesterday I felt as if I was about to go over the edge. Seriously. It was one of those days where reality hit me all at once and I started to feel sorry for myself,lol. It got to the point where I locked myself in my room for a good 1/2 hour after dh came home from work for a good cry. I'm usually a pretty strong person and have a thick skin, but it's just been a very trying summer, kwim? I truly have not had a moment to enjoy this summer. With the exception of vacation last week and even then I could not fully relax because my dfil went along with us. During that time we had to take care of financial issues (he is forgetting to pay his bills or throwing them out thinking that they were junk mail) and we were on our cell phones sorting that mess out. To put the icing on the cake, the dog had a seizure and dfil backed our Suburban into a trailer, leaving a HUGE dent. Argh

I do feel like a rotten mom who doesn't enjoy my kiddos and the time spent with them. Trust me, I wish I had the time to spend with them.After almost losing our dd in March of 2009 I should be more appreciative of our time together and I feel A LOT of guilt for feeling the way I do right now, kwim? But I cannot deny my feelings and keep things bottled up.

Oopsie, yesterdays mini-vent has now turned into a major-vent,lol! So sorry to whine, but I am about ready to throw up my hands in defeat!

"Just remember, you can do anything you set your mind to, but it takes action, perseverance, and facing your fears."-- Gillian Anderson

I can relate lol. My kids are out of school since the 30 June and wont go back until the 1 Sept - as much as I love them I need my space back - I do hate the homework that comes with school but on the whole for the sanity of my family they need to go back

BGB - Born December 2000